I’ve been absent.. but while I was gone he has been what I enjoyed in the moments of time. I’m ready because you are.
it’s easy to love him again because I loved him the first, second, third, and last time. it’s easy to fall in love with his everything because I genuinely loved him..
I just wanna see the future, man I don’t know.. if nothing even mattered ..it could all be so simple.
if a guy tells the next girl all the things he told you that made you feel special..then how would you feel. like none if it was true, right? like you’re just a mission in his game. ha, guys like that have some serious issues and problems inside. real talk. so don’t feel less than what you are. don’t worry and ponder and doubt yourself. above all things, love yourself<3
he’s fuckin trifling and I wanna go off on him lyk “you fuckin dogg, you’ll never change. stay the FUCK away from me.” he’s really the nigga I thought I’d never get involved with, turns out I fell in love with the mother fucker!
I had to get my mind right, I was beginning to stray into the mindless behavior where he would always make me go but I will never, I know I won’t. that hurt, hurt so bad it’ll never happen again. my mommy doesn’t deserve that, she doesn’t deserve to see me go through it, not any of my loved ones, and I don’t deserve the shit either. he is doing the same ish so, I guess ..well actually, I truly believe he will never change. it’s my fault for being so hopeful and strong and able. able to change, able to forgive, able to love..
don’t push him away melony. use your growth wisely for love. I know you wanna run but don’t run from love.
is it my pride? no. it is not my pride.. it is love. not the love that I gave to you not the love that I have for you but the love that I have for myself.
that love is much stronger, you see.
people say you go searching and you’ll find what you’re looking for. and they’re right, because I always do. but ultimately ..if the evidence is there then it’s true. he always let’s me down and gives me what I need to know he can’t do this thing. if nothing even mattered, I’d be with you. but the fact that it does matter tells me that, it’s not that simple. I can’t just love you and not be respected to my level of contentment. I’ll just pour all my love out here on this blog, I’ll speak of how much I love you and want you to do all the right things so u can be the one ..but I can’t make a person do a thang. some things you just gotta live with. you can’t turn back the hands of time and I can’t rewind my love for you. I guess I can’t press stop either…
nobody knows, in life, where we will go. i could imagine myself so happily in two different situations or lives.
- with you
- without you
if I had to choose, I’d pick you.
okai so I know things aren’t always gonna happen magically like in the fairy tales and movies but I really like it that way, I wish I had it that way. ultimately i dont wanna start something up to end up back where I was or being left with nothing. I just can’t go there, I could never fall so hard on my asz EVER in life. NEVER!
it’s not suppose to happen..me and him. but I think I want someone to love and show that I love them.. I wanna be somebody’s lady. I only wish in return that the feelings are mutual. he isn’t the one, but I loved him. can’t take that back.
I caught 11:11 for the first time. I don’t have to speak on what I wished for. oh by the way, I’m coasting on the greyhound right now..listening to wiz until my destination-Alexandria, for annual training. I can’t stop thinking about this car tho. I really want the one I want.. picture me rolling up to his place :))
